Rose

...Smiling today...
...Tomorrow will be dying...

Open your eyes
To the truth
Nothing lasts

Will the smiling rose be gone by tomorrow?

I'm a stranger soul
Inside your heart
You cry, I stay calm

You want me to go
But I'm a part of you
If I go, you'll go too

Will a rose die giving life to another?

I'm the voice echoing in the dark
And I open your eyes for the truth

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I feel like drawing. But I'm trying to figure out a vision. I'm thinking about a rose. Which got me writing.

Absent

Blue fingers reaching for the light
My hand cuffs are still holding tight
I'm running hopeless in the night
But comfort for the pain lies in your eyes.

Red feelings running through my veins
Fuel for the engine run by pain
Emotion, a fragment of soul is my gain
By collecting enough I will survive
But the emotion slowly dies.

I want something colorful
Something bright and something dark
I want something sharp and soft
Something simple, something detailed
Small, enormous, holy or evil
Whatever you find the best

Blue fingers reaching for the light
I won't give up without a fight
I won't die, I have you in sight
Can you live if your life is based on lies?

Your emotion is my gain
A triumph for a failure
I need it more and I need it fast
Because mine is dying out.

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Improvising again... I am never very happy with my words.

Beyond Taste

Hate - Conviction
I am to judge you all
Breed - My legion
I want, I covet you all
War - Damnation
I can destroy you all
Rage - Discrimination
I'll still ignore you all
I will condemn you all
I will savour you all
I will, I can, I want
And I won't stop
Before the time has come

I want to see your eyes in tears
(Heh)

The yesterday was in your name
But the tomorrow, it will belong to me
I'll make you my product, my property
And you will only exist for me

I want to see your eyes in tears
Tell me, what are your worst fears?
(Heh)

Give me. Conviction.
Light of tomorrow is a fire to scorch you
Give me. A legion.
A murder tomorrow is a reason to reward you
Give me. Damnation.
You're damned to have me to control you
Give me. Discrimination.
Ignore your heart, and I'll care to cherish you

But I still ignore you all
I still condemn you all
I still savour you all
I will, I can, I want
And I won't stop
Before the end has come

I want to see your eyes in tears
Tell me, What are your worst fears?
I want to see your eyes in tears
Tell me, What are your worst fears?
(HAHAHAHAHAHA)

GIVE ME HATE, BREED MY RAGE
GIVE ME WAR, KILL IN MY NAME
GIVE ME HATE, BREED MY RAGE
GIVE ME WAR, KILL IN MY NAME

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I wrote this earlier, a kind of a slow, heavy song, with big riffs and steady slamming rhythm and marching snare patterns was something I had in mind. Something dark and vicious. Figure out my mood for this one.

Couple a nights back I came up with something that's going to change things in my life. I am one of the kind of people who constantly dream about a better future. People who aim high. But I have realized, that the more you live to just get your dream, and don't focus on things happening now, you're perhaps never able to achieve your dreams. You've got to go with what you have now, you can't achieve anything by just thinking of it. I have got tons of things to think about right here, right now (Fatboy Slim, great song, check it out), such as high school, relationship, finding a job (something you actually get money from, being an artist for profession isn't very good option with my skills (YET, I hope)), army, etc. The first thing I'm going to do is to settle these things up, just to get independent and happy with my life. After that I can start thinking about my dreams. Even though I got a lot of stuff to handle, it doesn't mean I can't practice arts, drumming, music, writing, I can do those things. But first things first.